Monday, March 31, 2008

All About Sulylicous...

Some say I'm a sweetheart while others may say I'm a bitch. Yes this can be true, but who really knows the real me? You see, I work hard for what I have. No I wasn't born with a silver spoon in my mouth, far from it, but I was raised in a way where I had to earn anything I wanted. I don't have time to entertain those that settle for mediocrity. I work hard for everything I have so I get upset when I see lazy able bodied adults sitting on their asses collecting a check. Don't get me wrong... I know everyone needs help from time to time but I hate it when people turn welfare/section 8 into a damn career. So if you see me as the type that looks down on people or even try to degrade anyone that is not at my social economical level, that's bullshit, I just don't have patience for people with EXCUSES!

My life is not perfect, but who's really is? YES, I have bills up my ASS, I have family problems, and I even have ISSUES WITH MY SELF. But I live life to the fullest, like I'm the richest person in the world. You know why, because when I'm old I'll have so many effing stories to tell and have NO REGRETS. And when I die, I know none of the material stuff comes with me anyway, however, I will have had the satisfaction of living a good life.

My love is intense and tough and not too many people can handle it. But you see, the world is tough, and not too many people can handle that either. But what they don't understand is that we all face the same issues one way or the other. We must hurdle over these barriers in order to get to the next level in life. If not, we'll be stuck in the same place for the rest of our lives. And I don't know about you, but I need change, I must evolve in life. And if that means I have to sacrifice certain things in my life, I'm gonna do it. Yes, I get scared. I'll have insecurities if I will be successful in whatever changes I need make in my life, however, if that is what it takes to get me over whatever barrier I'm facing, than I will make that sacrifice.

You see we get COMFORTABLE in our surroundings and change becomes the ENEMY!! We want a better life, we're not HAPPY but CHANGE is the enemy!! FEAR takes over our mental state of mind and that's when all the excuses begin. Don't get me wrong, I'm speaking from experience. I've been there. I know what it feels like, but eventually we all need to make a change for the better of our lives. And no one is going to just hand it to us or give us the right answer, they can only advise. We control our destiny, and if we make the wrong decision, which I have done plenty of times, we just pick ourselves back up, dust the dirt off our shoulders and move on. Life is full of lessons and we must MOVE ON! Yes we will feel sad, disappointed, discouraged, and even pissed off at our decisions in life. But these are just feelings for the moment. Everything happens for a reason and the events of our lives are just a catalyst for what's in store for our future.

Always remember there will always be people in this world worse off than us. So don't shit on me because of where I'm at in my life. Just look at it as me being ahead of my race and keep in mind there is always someone ahead of me.

I'm an ambitious and enthusiastic person. I love to use these qualities to motivate and encourage others that are in my life. When you meet me I can come off as shy and quiet. But once I'm comfortable, I'm loud and silly. However, if you cross me I can be your worse enemy. I'm very down to earth and I get along with almost anyone. I'm independent and responsible but don't boast about it every chance I get. Everyone defines independence their own way. I'm very goal oriented and secure about myself. I'm a BIG DREAMER and hustler. Always working on making my dreams come true. Never settle till I feel complete. I'm easy-going and fun-loving. I love to have FUN but I also enjoy staying home and being a geek... I could watch National Geographic all day. I hate when things become mundane and always up for a good party. Definitely down for a trip out of town. I love going places I have never been before. I don't care if I'm somewhere for one day just two hours away, I just love the fact that I can say I've been there. Family and friends are highly important in my life. I can be very girly, but I'm never too shy to bum it out in a t-shirt, sweats, no make-up and my hair a mess. I'm a big believer in loving yourself. Having high self-esteem is very important because though we have failings and weaknesses, we must always keep a positive attitude, believe that the next day will always be better, and consistently live our lives to the fullest no matter what barriers we face day by day.

WHO ID LIKE TO MEET?
I like to meet anyone who motivates and encourages me to be a better person, physically, mentally, and emotionally.
Physically, is anyone that can motivate me to better in the physical things of life. Active people that can keep me from being lazy, healthy people that can keep me from getting fat, and freaky people that can enhance my sex life... teach me something I don't already know LMAO!!
Mentally, is people who know what their priorities are and have goals that they are trying to achieve in their lives. Never making any excuses. Never settling. They can keep my mental state of mind on the right track of life. People who are responsible for their actions and don't live with regrets, just lessons learned. I love people who know when it's the right time to take action and when to be laid back. I also like to meet successful and positive people because they can only influence me to move forward in my life and not back. I HATE NEGATIVE PEOPLE!!
Emotionally, is anyone who can motivate me to be a better daughter, sister, friend, lover, and someday a mother. We're not perfect people, that's why we need each other in our lives to influence us in areas that we are weak in. What doesn't kill us can only make us STRONGER.

WHY AM I SINGLE??
Well, I want to find myself a man that can add to what I have, not take away. I feel men I meet are intimidated by me because I have an education, a career and I do for myself. I'm not a needy woman, so they don't know what they can offer me. Well, what I want is balance, nothing more, nothing less. I think it's more fulfilling for a man and a woman to WANT each other rather than NEED each other.

I want to find someone that can satisfy me mentally, physically and emotionally. I find that some men can't carry conversation well which is why they don't like to go out on dates... Not good for my mental satisfaction. I also find most men very selfish and forget that physical gestures (not just sex) like a hug, hand holding, and a simple kiss on the neck is very important in satisfying a woman physically. I also find that men don't understand how to satisfy a woman emotionally by simply communicating how he feels and what I mean to him. YES WOMEN ARE EMOTIONAL however, a man's actions toward us determines how emotionally attached a women can get.

I want to give myself to a man that's not afraid to give himself to me. Again BALANCE... I will only give what I feel I receive. I sometimes feel I'm cold, distant, and incapable of true love because I'm afraid of giving too much. But than I feel that it's just because I haven't met a man that can bring out 100% from me.
So, until I can find what can satisfy me I'm just staying single and enjoying what life has to offer cause it's better to be by myself then with some broke ass, irresponsible mama's boy that ain't got shit to offer me but drama!

YA HEARD!!!!